She is Love                    By Sandy Jones

Dear Susan,

Thank you for your questions about my 'spiritual' background.

No, I do not consider my self an "advaitist" ---I have never studied Advaita, but I know it is all about "non-duality" and 'inquirey' into 'who am I'---That I do understand..

However, I do not think of my self as a "non-dualist" either. I do not think I am what they called them in old days an "Absolutist"---I live and understand non-duality, but, I also live and understand the images within This ONE Divine Awareness-I-Am.

I do not call myself an anything. I have no affiliations to any group or personal Guru.

I learned about My Real Identity via an enlightened man who refused to call himself a teacher. He name is William Samuel. He passed on over 15 years ago.

His work was about getting us back to finding our own Inner Guide; Our True Self.

In finding this True Self I have found the Balance---or as William Samuel, my frined and mentor called It; The Child.

I have no religion, and I belong to no organization, no one, and nothing--so I don't have a name for 'what I understand'---But I have Grace and Holiness in My life---I have God in My Life---One to One, face to face, Here and Now.

For me the only way to say 'what I am' is the God IS All in All way of saying it ---I believe and Live by this Truth that shines clear to Me; That God is All in all---Those words for me are the ones that open the doors to Life Itself and to The Real Self-Discovery. God is All is the basis, the foundation, of my understanding.

God is All in all, is all I need to know---And I have discovered that This Is True. The rest of the journey is the Joy of seeing This Truth manifesting in My Life, unfolding in my life, guiding me through My Life, Trusting This Truth, Faith and Love and Being All This That I Am as My Life.

I see how the 'neti-neti' way, the not this and not that "Advaita" way can also bring us to the doorstep of Life Itself; unclothed in the armor of concepts and beliefs, stripped of our mis-taken sense of identity-- always negating 'the me' the ego, the thinker--and all that---Yes, I see that---I see there is 'no me' and thoughts have no power----. But the 'neti- neti' way is not for me---I like the Here It Is and It is All That Is, and It is God and God's Awareness and there is nothing else and no other but This-- And I arrive at the Same Place.

As St. Cathrine of Seinna put it: "My me is God.... Nor do I see any other me but my God himself."

Jesus said 'find the beginning and stay there'---the Beginning is Awareness--- Awareness Is the Beginning of all we know, do, see and be---without Awareness, there is nothing 'else'; no matter, no world, no anything at all----God is this Awareness-I-am and God is Being This Awareness, The Beginning, This That All images are included in.

For me, the man that inspired me the very most was William Samuel, He had the right message for me---He is honest and he confirms what I already knew in my heart. He was a God given gift to me and pretty much the first and the last wise man I ever needed to hear the Truth from.

He taught me to Return to my own Self and Trust My Self and My Own Heart. He was right by gumm by golly.

As you know I was given to be his literary executor and to keep his works published. I am his 'secretary' let us say---- I cannot write like he does, nor should I. He was a brilliant man who had a Divine Gift for communicating The Truth/the Subjective/ Non-Duality.

He told me to Trust My Self---and I do, This has served me well.

He entrusted me with his work in this world--It is an honor--For over 15 years now, I have been publishing his books and keeping his work out there in the world. That is it. This is a Joy for me, I love sharing his work with My World---he trusted me with all this--I honor that trust.

Yes, I understand his work, I understand my 'non-duality' very well---Yes, I got the message loud and clear, I understand the words he writes from the depths of my soul--I found what he 'pointed to' for myself---Now It Is Mine, It is Real and I live Free to be me---and because of the Light I have found by way of his masterful and honest work, I love to share his message, his writings with others---So, they can find what I have found within themselves.

You know, he told me the most important thing that I could ever do would be find The Child-- And I did, and I have and he was right, It is.

His work helped me to find The Child---and I know it has helped many to find The Child.

Finding The Child has made me a Freedom lover, that is what I am---and Freedom has found Me--- And because I love Freedom I am not a teacher. The only thing I really do to 'help others' is to suggest that people read William's work and hope that they will find what I found.

Of course when Mr. Samuel was actually here in this tangible world, it was so much better to be able to have a face to face conversation with such a brilliant man---many learned of The Light They Are when they would sit with him and talk to him.

I'd send everyone over to see him. Now all I can do is send them to his books, to his writings, to his website---But, I have seen his 'magic' continues to work its Wonders---Because 'his magic' is YOUR magic---One, Single, Only and All That Is.

The Truth is Within Us, not 'out there' in someone else---It only appears to be coming from 'another' but This is Really Our Self. One Self, Here Alone, All in all.

The Beauty of finding Freedom is that my work, my life, my way with words are mine. The way I write is my own little expression of Love for God as best I can---It does not always go right----Writing my Love for God in what ever way it appears, this is my way of My Life Here on Earth and it is a continuing Wonderment of Self-discovery; Ever expanding Light and wisdom as Life filled with disclosures of The Truth at every turn and every sticking place.

As the inventor of the engine, John Kris, said "Start her up and see why she don't run" --- I love that---not to be afraid of our mistakes, they are the Best instructors of all---if we are humble and allow them to show us the way to what is---they do, every time.

I have found that All means ALL.

Remember that words in themselves are powerless---when it comes to The Living Truth, the Real Power is Life Itself.

Freedom, I found that the Truth is about Freedom

I have found what William Samuel calls "the Child'-- the ungovernable Child--- I say with a little smile in my heart.

I have found the Light that cannot be harmed or touched by upheaval or death-- She is Real and she takes my hand now and walks through the world with me-- my mistakes and all---She judges not--She is Love--Genuine Eternal Everlasting Real Love.

 

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